Captured Music
Breaking upon the shore, the bright
waves leap
And play until the ebb-tide
backward wells,
Leaving the lonely sand in silence,
deep,
Save for the captured music of the
shells.
Thus long ago, my children came to
me,
And stayed until life bade them to
depart,
Yet still upon the sands of memory
Their
vanished laughter lingers in my heart.
Ernestine Cobern Beyer |
| 143 ATLANTIC AVENUE, COHASSET MASSACHUSETTS |
This isn’t what our house looked like when we moved in, after buying it for $12,500 in 1944. It isn’t even exactly what it looked like when we moved out, twenty-two years later. There was a time when I was sure I’d still be living there today. But it’s funny; life has a way of changing expectations.
Welcome to Tears and Laughter at 90, where I peer back into decades of journal entries and letters and share bits from my book (Take My Ex-Husband, Please--But Not Too Far), plus a comedy co-authored by my daughter Kathie (The Tempestuous Triangle), plus my mother Ernestine's captivating poems (20 published in Poetry with a Purpose, Good Apple, Inc., 1987, an activity book available on Amazon), and excerpts from the Log of the Happy Days.The house on Sandy Cove was razed in 2002. When I heard the news I felt as if an essential part of me was gone, too. Our home for over two decades was replaced by a million-dollar edifice that dwarfed its neighbors . . . even McKenna’s Mansion. Embellished with spires and turrets and pediments, it loomed over the adjoining homes that blended unaffectedly into their beach grass and scrub pine surroundings. In 2007, the alien sold for close to five million dollars. Kathie’s reaction: “I don't care if it sold for ten million dollars. To me, it will always detract from the beauty and charm of the Sandy Cove I remember.”
In the spring of 1944, my husband and I were looking for a house in Cohasset, Massachusetts. Our home in Waban was an attractive colonial we had purchased for $6500 two years earlier, after Ed got a sizable raise to $65 a week, but it lacked one thing he was determined to have: an ocean.
The realtor was about to pass a long driveway lined with venerable elm trees, when she slowed down and said, "There's a nice old house back there, but it's rented for the summer. You might want to take a look at the outside.” We followed the realtor, our toddlers, Kathie and baby brother Teddy, in tow. We saw a rambling three-story shingled house with gables and ells, a large screened porch, and a shed covered with vines. (watercolor below by Mom's friend Ruth Yount). Beyond the front porch, beach grass edged a meandering path leading to Sandy Cove. In the middle of the cove there were two outcroppings of rocks, one much larger than the other. The rocks, our guide told us, had been been called "Big‑Big" and "Little‑Big" for as long as anyone could remember.
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| BIG-BIG AND LITTLE-BIG |
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A SHED COVERED WITH VINES |
In the fall, after we moved
in, four-year-old Kathie solved the mystery of the tides. “Look, Mummy, the
rocks have gone out again!”
Our house was
referred to as "the old Adams house" for most of the twenty-two
years we lived in it. The key to a third floor bedroom was labeled "Uncle
Charlie's room." Charlie, we deduced from local yore, was Charles Francis
Adams, a descendant of John Quincy Adams and a frequent visitor to his
relatives’ South Shore retreat. My mother, children’s poet Ernestine Cobern
Beyer, lived with us in the summer and loved the view from Charlie's window as
much as he must have. A trio she observed on the beach was the inspiration for
"Sunbonnet Babies.”
That hides her adorable bangs,
And one wears a bonnet that shadows her nose,
And one wears a bonnet that hangs.
The first wears a pinafore (not very white!)
The second, a dress that is tidy.
But the belle of the beach is the third little mite
With the slightly inadequate didy!
(Ladies Home Journal, April 1949)
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| VAUGHAN AND VONNIE |
Opposite Mom’s bedroom lived Vaughan, my childhood caretaker, confidante, and faith-ful champion since I was eight years old. I thought of her as my second mother and had long ago promised her “a place by the chimney corner.” Although she was recovering from a double mastectomy, Vaughan couldn’t be deterred from pitching in when my current helper had a day off or went on vacation.
She and Ernestine were devoted friends, although sweet dispositions could sour just the tiniest bit when one or the other won at Canasta unfairly often. When the weather turned cold-hearted, the two migrated to Florida and went their separate ways, Vaughan to a job in Miami near her son, Mother to Orlando.
The second floor had four bedrooms, a plus when our family expanded. The one to the left of the stairway was assigned to Vonnie (Stephanie Vaughan), who arrived two years after Teddy. Next came the bathroom, whose claw-footed bathtub we eventually replaced with a modern one, installed under a small, high window that overlooked the driveway. Many was the time I hopped into that tub to make sure the children had caught their bus or Kathie’s on-the-loose horse, Heidi, before she found her way onto the pristine lawn of our neighbor, Mr. McKenna.
The bedroom across from Vonnie’s overlooked Sandy Cove and belonged to Kathie. The third bedroom also had a view of Sandy Cove and was outfitted with bunk beds for Teddy and Timmy, the fourth child in the family, blessing us in 1946, the year I turned twenty-five. When the brothers reached a destructive age, boy-proof linoleum was installed. In a matter of months, a chemistry experiment involving acid marred the flooring, which didn’t come with a warranty.
VONNIE, TIMMY, TEDDY AND
KATHIE
The master bedroom had an ocean-view
study where I parked my desk, Royal typewriter, filing cabinet, and stacks of
mending I was perennially unable to reduce. We didn’t tell the children they
must knock before entering. Instead, my sagacious husband installed a bolt to
guarantee our privacy. One night we forgot to use it. Ed, suffering from
cold sores for two weeks, had been as grouchy as a bear and about as
approachable.
When his mouth cleared up, he was more like
himself—a wolf. (rrruff!) So we were cuddling, and I was catching up on the
loving he owed me when we heard his visiting mother, Mimi, at the door.
“Barbara, are you awake?”
“No!” I said as convincingly as I could. In the same breath Ed snapped,
“We’re asleep, go away!”
“I
brought up your bag, Barbara,” Mimi said, turning the knob. “I thought you
might like—“
“Leave it there, leave it there!” Ed said frantically.
“I
don’t need it right now, Mimi,” I said. “Leave it on the shelf outside and I’ll
get it tomorrow.”
“Oh.
Well, all right. I hope I didn’t wake you up. I just thought you might want—“
“Go
away!” her son sobbed. Poor Mimi! Poor Ed!
In the 40s and 50s, lacking a crystal ball, Ed and I were as unaware as any other young couple of the hazards that would ambush us in the future.
In the 40s and 50s, lacking a crystal ball, Ed and I were as unaware as any other young couple of the hazards that would ambush us in the future.
